It's just so sad!!

Well today is probably one of the saddest days of my life! I had to give away my baby...Mr. Higgins!!!! That little booger has been in my life for over a year and despite the fact that he has never been the most well mannered little pooch, I'm SO attatched to the little guy!!
I decided about a month ago that he needed to go. I didn't want to, and still don't want to, but his energy level and badness level combined with a newborn baby I think would be not so good! So I prayed hard about it and decided to sell him. After several quite nasty emails that people wrote me on KSL.com telling me how horrible I was for giving him away, which made me feel 10 million times WORSE that I already did about giving him away, a really amazing nice family called about him! They live in Monticello Utah which is by Moab. They have a lot of land and a 4 year old little boy! Sounds like the perfect scenario for me! Higgins LOVES kids he's great with them in fact my nephews adore him, but I was just too worried about having him around a newborn.
So, I'm about to go and meet up with the family who is coming to get him. I'm already crying, and will probably bawl my eyes out like a complete idiot when I give him away.
As if I haven't cried enough over the past 3 or 4 weeks. It's been so stressful. My mom started her chemotherapy, and has to stay in Salt Lake for the duration. So, I offered to move in with her at the Marriott which caters to the Huntsman Center, so we have a super huge suite for VERY cheap! I've been up there during the weeks with her making sure she's ok and getting her what she needs, taking her to the hospital for her treatments, and most importantly making sure she gets out as much as she can so she doesn't go CRAZY! It's been an emotional journey thus far and my Mom and I have been shedding alot of tears together, but it has really been good for me and her to have this much alone time, and I have enjoyed our many very very late night conversations because neither of us can sleep! My mom is such a strong woman, and so far she's doing very well with her treatments, and we're keeping our fingers crossed that her hair won't fall out this time! But I told her if it does I'm buying her all sorts of fancy head wraps which are supposedly the "in" this summer! :) And some cool wigs too!
Anyways, there's a quote that has been constantly running through my head this whole time and it is: "Be not faithless, but believing" . There have been times when I feel way to overwhelmed and can't hold it together, but that quote has given me inner strength and peace. God has a plan for everyone, and we just need to stay faithful that things will work out in due time, so staying positive is key. But we will continue to pray and be believing instead of faithless that things are going to be fine.